Wishful Thinking

You know those times when you think an impossible thing but wonder if it really is possible? Well lately I've been having those moments a little too often. I think all I really want is to get out of this place called reality. Because just for those people who don't yet know it, reality sucks.

If you make one really big mistake, all happiness in your life could be gone. Sometimes you never get it back. Or maybe you have money, a job, and shelter, but you never get to do the things you want to do. Your either sleeping, eating, or working. It gets tiring, or at least that's my guess. At the moment I'm only a student but I'm already feeling that's how my life is. Right at the moment my life has one boring routine that I absolutely hate and I can't see how it's going to get any better. It's school, eating, sleeping, working. It sucks. Then there's all sorts of family issues, friend issues, school issues, and a whole lot of other issues that make reality even worse! I'm starting to feel like a controlled zombie and I hate it! And now since I brought up being controlled, I might as well ramble on about that.

Have any of you realized that you're all just being controlled? For example, I'm forced to go to school, live a certain way, act a certain way, and do certain things. Why can't I just do whatever I want!? Why can't I just pick a nice spot of land in a forest or by the ocean and just live there however? It's not fair. Now this finally brings me back to my impossible thinking.

My life is to the point where I always seem to be having a bad day and just want to escape from everything, so when I come home, wishful thinking pours in. Why can't someone with wings sweep me off my balcony and take me somewhere far away. Far away where I can live in peace. Why can't creatures exist such as werewolves, centaurs, and faeries? I could at least have some friends outside of school and the civilized world that are different from everybody else just like I seem to be too, that will always be loyal to me and never stab me in the back. Because I'm honestly sick of being hurt emotionally countless times from people I know. I wonder so hard if they're actually real. It's my fantasy.

Wanting to escape reality so bad, I think that is why I read and write so much. I'm desperate to sink my teeth in a book and forget my troubles and I'm desperate to write away my escape.

All I want is to be free from everything and my fantasies to be real.

My 100+ reading list for 2010!

This year is all about competitions and challenges. I've already joined three and I'm now joining another! So what exactly is my new challenge that I have joined? Well, I think you can pretty much figure it out just from looking at the title. Yep, that's right. I'm going to read 100 books or more this year. Way to go me!

I've never done anything like this before, but I'm still hoping that I can still anyways complete this goal of mine. If I don't accomplish it, then "Oh well there's always next year" is all I can say. Just kidding. I think I would end up tearing out all my hair due to the fact that I failed.

So what about you guys? I'm talking to all you book nerds. Why don't you all join me and see if we can do this! Yeah!

List of 100+ Books for 2010!

1. Tithe

2. Vampire Academy book 1

3. Ranger's Apprentice #1

4. Ranger's Apprentice #2

5. Ranger's Apprentice #3

6. Ranger's Apprentice #4

7. Lily Dale Awakening

8. Dragon's Keep

9. Twisted

10. Pretty Little Liars: Heartless

11. The Luxe

12. Secret of the Sirens

13. Dreamland

14. Dead Connection

15. Witch Child

16. Metamorphoses: A play

17. Night

18. Vampire Academy: Frostbite

19. Two Way Street

20. Perfect Chemistry

21. Vampire Academy: Shadow Kiss

22. Neverwhere

I Joined Script Frenzy!

So, having a passion for writing and having the mind of an idiot, I have decided to join Nanowrimo's Script Frenzy! For the month of April I have to write a 100-page script. Why does this make me an idiot? For the fact that I don't have the darn time to write a play/movie/graphic novel script! In fact, I don't even have time to be writing this post! I'm supposed to be doing my homework which I have a lot of and happens to be what I'm talking about.

School leaves me no time to do what I want to do, but thinking back to the amazing month of November, I realize that I must do this. It was so much fun writing my story in a period of stress and happiness! It will make for good practice and I've never done anything like this! So let's hope I can get going at it!

By the way, what do you think I should make my script about? Comment! :)

Was Almost Killed...

I had the most tragic of times last weekend. In fact, I almost died.

How did I almost die you wonder? Well, it's a long story, but here it goes...

It all started on Sunday, March 7, when my family and I decided to go see Alice in Wonderland in 3D. We were going to go see it on Saturday, but because of the amazing speed at which tickets are sold away, we bought tickets right then and there to see it on Sunday at 11:00. The movie was amazing, although I left the theatre with a bloated stomache (from all the Coca-Cola I was drinking) and had to run the the bathroom. Rather quickly I might add.

So as it goes along, I see my friends Rumpelstiltskin and Baba Yaga (they're codenames, not the actual fable characters). They are hanging out, waiting for Big Bad Wolf, aka B.B. Wolf, and then they see me and are all like, "Pinocchio! We were about to sell your movie ticket! We weren't sure if you were coming!"

I was confused, 'cause I had no idea what was really going on. But everything did eventually get fixed and brought up to date, and what do you know? I ended up watching Alice in Wonderland again! Score!

Then we go to 'Crepes and Waffles' and have a blast, only I'm lactose intolerant so I ended up having a rather bad stomache ache after drinking a nice cup of hot chocolate during the time while we were there. That is when Rumpelstiltskin realizes her phone is missing. We can't find it so we just go ahead on to her house.

She was really upset.

That was when an amazing thing happened! Rumpelstiltskin called her cell phone and it turned out the theatre place were holding it, waiting to see who's it was! So then we walked all the way back to the mall and she reclaimed her phone.

Now, here is where my life became endangered.

So, we were walking back again to her house, when all of a sudden this really creepy lady comes out of nowhere! And I mean creepy! She has green hair, is wearing all black, and is missing a few teeth in the front. And although she was kind of small, she was scary! My friends and I tried to shuffle pass, but for some reason this lady decides I'm her new victium. She grabs me from behind and holds a knife to my throat, trying to rob my candy bag from my hand. I see some of her associates follow behind her, looking at me with horribly, pleading eyes. B.B. Wolf and Baba Yaga were lucky enough to escape her and her associates clutches, they ran on ahead, scared out of their wits. That is when Rumpelstiltskin saves the day!

She drives a round-house kick to the ladies' rear end causing the green haired lady to yowl with pain and to loosen her hold on me just a bit, but I'm still not free. Rumpelstiltskin does a quick kick and the knife is knocked from her hand. My friend then aims a hard core punch at the insane woman. Her fist collides with the ladies' nose, a snap can be heard. Her nose was broken.

The green haired lady falls back, I tear free and manage my escape with my candy bag clutched tightly in both hands. I take off running and I don't dare look back at the ugly sight behind me. Before I started to get slightly worried, I hear Rumpelstiltskin fall into step besides me. We run on and on and finally manage to catch up with the others.

So you see? I nearly escaped from my own funeral. Now this should be a lesson to you all. Never, and I mean never, carry a bag of delicous, strawberry gummies on your walk home. It's dangerous!

My-, uh, Sorry I Can't Think Up a Title

Lately, I've been unable to come up with ideas on what I can write and post on my blog. So today I decided to write about not being able to write and post on my blog! It's a topic isn't it?
So how I came to the idea was by searching-
You know what? I can't do this anymore! It's just too hard! Now this is going to end up being like one of those really annoying posts that just keep going on and on about nothing in particular. Now I feel like this is such a lame post, so I think I'm just going to end this entry here.
I think I have writer's blues...

Disappointment

Disappointment.
The word that seems to be writing out my life.
I'm talking about everything. When will there be at least just one little moment where I don't screw up something? Or when will the moment be when someone or something ends up disappointing me stop?
It has been going on for far too long now. It's difficult having one disappointment right after the next. I'm referring to everything. Not just guys or family issues, everything. I'm sick of nothing turning or working out. In fact, nothing ever works!
Looking at guy issues: Every single guy I seem to ever get a crush on ends up dating someone else, never looks my way, doesn't know I exist, they don't exist, are out of my league, or just don't feel the same way about me that I do them. And whenever I figure out these things or happen to found out about them, I become overly disappointed with a usual broken heart. (If some of you are familiar with what happened today, then I am sure you all know who I am referring to.)
School issues: I seem to disappoint teachers with my school work or I disappoint myself for not studying or just simply not understanding something that everyone else seems to get.
General Life Issues: I disappoint myself in not being able to accomplish something I want or need and I seem to always do something I will regret.
And then there is the disappoint that I seem to just be giving out to people in buckets. You know what? I'm not even going to go there.
In fact, the post is rather disappointing along with the fact that I cannot seem to be able to write interesting posts about my everyday life, which I meant to do with this one.
Oh, gosh.

Italian Foods the Best!

After creating an Italian salad yesterday, which was sunday, (yeah, I had to make another salad with a different dressing because I could not leave myself thinking about the other deadly salad) I have fallen in love with Italian food! Actually, Italian is already my favorite type of food and it has been ever since I traveled to Italy, what I meant to say was that I'm in love with making Italian food.
Yeah, that sounds about right.
The Italian salad dressing that I made was so good that I got into this whole Italian frenzy. I was even planning on kindly making an Italian dinner for everyone, only my parents had to make pork chops. :(
Life is sad.
But that doesn't mean I can't cook anything tonight!
BINGO! (the bingo was unnecassary but needed to go on)
By the way, you may be kindly wondering if I'm alright from the horrible sickness I had caught from the nasty salad dressing I had made on saturday. Yeah, I'm now cured. Thanks for asking.